One of my favorite bloggers, Kelle Hampton, is hosting guest bloggers post on her blog while she's looking after a new born. This post by Melina Coogan from the Wilder Coast sums up for me better than I have heard anywhere the longing to have children. I waited 6 years for children and while my journey was very different to Melina's, she expresses what I felt so well...
"I’ve dreamt about having babies since I was three. I can picture exactly what they will look like, smell like, sound like. I’ve felt their warmth, their weight in my arms. I’ve named my daughter. I’ve named my son. Sometimes I feel like they’re already here, waiting in the wings, whispering for me to be careful, take it easy, turn back early, the conditions are getting dangerous, the river is too high. We’re just around the corner, they whisper, holding my face in their invisible hands. Please hold out for us."
I love my children from somewhere so deep I had no idea it existed before they arrived. I am so grateful to be a mother and every single day I look at these children that God matched me with, and all I see is His goodness.
I know what it is to long for a child so much that the the longing becomes part of your being. Then I know what it's like to hold a day old baby for the first time and feel a love ignite that takes your breath away.
I know the joy of pregnancy and what it is to be the first to hold a new life. To feel the same love as the first time ignite and a whole new part of my heart grow to hold it.
Because I know what it's like to be without them, I can never stop being thankful that they are here.
My children, my beautiful blessings.